Just got back from watching Nip/Tuck at H's place.



Ofcourse, it's as hot and twisted as ever and I love it so much. I think I have a thing for bad boys, because I can't help but think Troy is hot despite the fact that he's an arrogant jerk to most of the women he's with. I guess my Tuesday nights will be spent at H's place now, because he seems pretty into it. We finally have a show! - well it's about time!

H update: I don't know what to call us. He cares about me and I care about him, but I honestly don't see a future for us toegther. There's been so much history between us that I can't allow myself to love him the way I used to - and even if I wanted to, I really don't think it would happen. He's around if I need him, but I'm keeping myself in check, remembering that I can't get emotionally attached.

Over the past few weeks, I've seriously considered not seeing him at all. We even got into a few fights over our status. Friends or not friends? Together or not together? Wifey or Bff? Whatever the case, I know that I can't picture living a life without him in it... even if his part is just as a friend. We dated for over three years. How can I say goodbye to all of that?

But it's also possible that I'm holding myself back from seeing and meeting new people because I have H. Speaking of which, K has been asking me out again and again for weeks now, even though that first date didn't blow over too well and I've just been stalling and avoiding him. One thing is for sure, I'm definitely not ready to really go out with anyone else until I've got this whole H thing figured out.

I guess I'm just scared of the process, mostly the process of getting over him. Reminds me of something from Sex and the City. I think Charlotte once said that the length of time someone needs to get over a significant other is double the time she was with that person.


Hmnn... that's kind of way too many lonely friday nights with Ben & Jerry.