I'm officially bummed out and am so close to losing my spirit. I just got a letter from Teach for America this morning, stating that I was not advanced into the next part of the application process. I can't even begin to explain how disappointed I feel right now. I really wanted to be part of the program, and I'm so sad that they didn't accept me. This whole T4A thing is really making me doubt my skills and my passion for education.

Last night, I was looking into the application process for UC Berkeley's Graduate program. As the days progress, the thought of pursuing my Ph.D. in English Literature is taking up more space in my mind. But there are so many things that are preventing me from finalizing my decision to apply. I really want to get rid of my undergrad education debt. I don't want that weighing my shoulders down while pursuing mh Ph.D. UC Berkeley offers an extensive fellowship to accepted graduate students, so I'm not so worried about grad school loans - but I want to enter that stage of my life fresh and debt free.

I'm still keeping my fingers crossed for this Assistant Editor position. The content of the journal is not the area I see myself editing in the future, but we all need to start somewhere. I still imagine being Editor in Chief of The New Yorker someday, but I'm still psyched that this position is for a women's health magazine to, so at least it aligns itself with my interest in women's studies and research.

I'm keeping it all in check though. Not getting accepted into T4A is not the end of the world. When one door closes, another one opens. (fill in another self-reassuring quote here) I really need a banana and chocolate crepe to cheer me up.

If only life tasted as good as crepes.