Creating
Watercolor paintings! I really want to do lots of still life studies, so I'm coming up with a list of things that I want to paint:
- hydrangeas
- cherries
- glasses
- shoes
- dahlias
- jewelry
- liquid substances
- glass bottles
- pomegranate
- grapes
- cups and saucers
- teapots
And eventually, I want to paint:
- my backyard
- NYC skyline
- myself
- my family
- D, in that famous Kate Winslet Titanic pose
- just kidding
Thinking
About my conversation with D the other night. A few days ago, I told him I had feelings for someone. He was quite surprised, because he thought I was still trying to get back with H. It's never a good idea to crush on your male confidant, because at that point, you will no longer be unbiased about anything this person says. Instead, every word, letter, punctuation mark will, in the grand scheme of the things your mind has decided to analyze, mean something. So the other night, I told him I was giving up on the new crush. And right after, he asked me to hang out with him this week, to take pictures of him so he can post it on his MySpace. It took a lot of willpower to hold back my laughter regarding the MySpace photoshoot when we talked.
I think he knows it's been him all along. I'm torn between being bummed that it's no longer a secret and being ecstatic because maybe this is were it will begin. My theory is that if he knew he was the "crush," then hearing that I had given up was perhaps the catalyst to his sudden interest in hanging out with me. I should just stop all of this over analyzing and revel in the fact that finally, we'll get some alone time - with a camera at hand, might I add! I know, sounds so naughty.
Dreaming
About a car. I want to buy my own! I'm tired of the minivan, although it has surprisingly gotten me asked out a few times. I mean, who can resist a cute little Asian chick driving a huge, green Nissan Quest? Honestly, if that doesn't do it for you, you must be in need of Viagra.
My top two choices are:
The Scion TC & the Honda Civic
Anticipating
Hannah's Birthday Celebration! Ice skating, dinner, and shopping with her and some of the best girls in the world! I haven't ice skated in about a decade, so I hope no one laughs at me as I slip and slide at Wollman's Rink on Sunday. At least we'll be getting some Indian food afterwards, that way we can all warm up with some chicken curry and samosa. Yum.
Jolene's return home to visit her family during Thanksgiving. I have neglected this girl and I miss her so much! And now that her little sister and my little brother are "dating," we get to be the trying, fanatical, meddlesome big sisters together!
Loving
My expensive new paintbrushes. I have a fascination with soft brushes, and often run them across my face because the sensation is just so magical. Then I remember that some of the hairs do come from dead animals, so I try limit the indulgence to once a day.
Admiring
My cousin J. She was hospitalized from Thursday 'til Saturday due to stomach pain, most likely related to her kidney problems (she receives dialysis treatment) and the first thing she said when she woke up after her 20-hour morphine-induced sleep was "I'm gonna get fired from Abercrombie and Fitch." She's unbelievably strong, and it amazes me how even when she's in bed with an IV, she still thinks about her life outside of the hospital room. I stayed overnight at the hospital on Friday, so that her mom could go home and get some rest. And let me tell you, watching someone you love getting poked by needles is the most difficult thing to witness. There were so many times when I wish I could have done something to ease her pain, but I felt so helpless! Thank God, Thank you thank you God - that she was discharged on Saturday. I hope and pray that she will get a new kindey soon, so that hospitals will be a thing of the past for her.
Drinking
My second cup of Flavia Colombian coffee at work. Intensity level 4. The other day, I made the mistake of drinking Sumatra coffee, intensity level 6, and let's just say that my urine wasn't the same old light orange color. But I did get a lot of work done! Wow. That was totally inappropiate, but I think I'll leave you with that pleasant thought.
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Labels: Weekly Tidings
4 Comments:
chelle..loved this post says so many things about you..about your kind and loving nature, it shines right through. I am glad your cousin is doing better..yes I want to see your paintings of all the things on your list..:) I love the feel of brushes also..try not to think of where they come from..ugh..wonderful anticipation of parties, family and friends..yummy food..what more could one ask for..as for the car..I do believe you would look 'hot' in either one..and finally last but surely not at all least..the 'crush'..relax, breath, relax, breath..now stop worrying!! when you least expect it then...no I hate it when people say that..aarrrkk just be yourself, don't second guess and forget he is your best friend for a moment and treat him as you would any man you just have to have..make him realize that your the one that he just has to have..come on, you know you got it in ya.. didn't you just say...'who can resist a cute little Asian chick driving a huge, green Nissan Quest? Honestly, if that doesn't do it for you, you must be in need of Viagra'...go for it girl!! besides a relationship built on friendship is a relationship that will last, now if that doesn't work have him over for a movie nite..and make sure you have a movie with a best friend not knowing that his best friend...you get the idea..oh to be young and staring life in the face once again,aaahhh...take care sweetie..m
I LOVE THIS! love, mel
crap! you made me tear about my little section. but yeah, you should kiss D on thursday! hehe. luv ya!
Heyy,
I have some contemplations on your section about D. The fact that he showed surprise that you were over H might be optimistic--meaning that he couldn't have known that it was him at least all along. And I think also the fact that he asked you to hang out right after you said that you were giving up on the new crush would be too direct & fitting for him to know that it was him whom you were crushing over. It would almost be like you were telling him to his face that you would give up on him & he would say, "Well, on 2nd thought, don't give up on me. I want to keep being admired. So can we please hang out, & can you please not get over me."
In any case, I agree that it is not the best decision to keep your own crush as your mentor over this crush. It, would indeed drive you krazy with the additional overinterpreting that a girl is prone to when interacting with a crush. I think that you confide in any of your other guy friends about D since they would work well.
Your situation with having your love interest be the mentor for himself fits into a dramatic scenario for a movie. I can think of the parallel to Twelfth Night at the top of my head--Viola dressed as Ganymede confiding to her love interest, the Duke about a love interest.
That part about your cuz is sooo sweeet. I will also pray for her.
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