I've decided... or have come to realize that life is short. I need to live in the moment and stop worrying so much about tomorrow. I've decided that life's not going to wait for me... that sometimes, I have to stop being so afraid of what's going to happen next, otherwise I won'teven be able to enjoy what's happening now.

And because of this newfound fervor... I've decided that I am going to kiss him. Even if I know it's a stupid choice, because I really just can't live with the fact that I didn't try to see if something was there.

Even if I am semi-in-love with him right now, I know I can bounce back from this. I'm resilient.

And I'm going into this with the understanding that I'll accept whatever happens.

If it turns out that he's actually semi-in-love with me too, then yipee! If not, then oh well. That's life (that's life). That's what all the people say. You're ridin high in April... then shot down in May.

Yeah, you like that Sinatra there, don't you?